It’s been one week since you left us and it feels less and less real. Every day around 3 I think “oh mom should be home soon” but I have to remind myself that your not coming home. Not in the way I wish you were.
This is the longest I have ever gone without talking to you. It’s so hard I just want to text or call you. I catch myself multiple times a day thinking I should or wanting your advice on something or to tell you about something Madelynn did. It feels so empty without you.
Madelynn misses you too she asked me yesterday of you could go to the mall with us. It breaks my heart having to tell her your gone and your not coming back. It’s not fair. I needed you now more than ever and your gone…just like that. Will it ever feel normal again?
I feel like I’m going crazy. I’m angry..I’m sad..I feel like a part of me is missing..I don’t know how to feel. I’m trying to stay strong and pull it together but I feel like it’s getting harder to do. I just hope I can do it..for you.
I hope your happy wherever you are. I miss you so much.. I just want my mom back.
And I thank you so much for making me who I am. I hope I am making you proud. I wouldn’t trade having you as my mother for anything else in the world. Except maybe to have you back here with me. I love you so much and I’m proud to say I’m your daughter.
I will do my best as I always do
I will give it my all just for you ❤️❤️❤️
Sleep in peace mommy I love you so so so much. Thank you for everything you ever did for me I tried so hard to show you how much I appreciated all of it everything the good and the bad. You taught me alot and I’m so so so proud to say you created me.